A great love letter

A great love letter
02/02/2017 Alicia L.

Valentine’s day is around the corner and love is in the air, did you notice?

There are fantastic love stories throughout the history and I want to take back the love affair between the essayist Anaïs Nin and the novelist Henry Miller. They were already married and were having this affair for decades.

a great love letter

Anaïs Nin’s most important works are her journals. The journals, which span several decades, provide a deeply explorative insight into her personal life and relationships. According to her diaries, Vol.1, 1931–1934, Nin shared a bohemian lifestyle with Henry Miller during her time in Paris.

We could say, easily and in the first place, that their texts formed the basis of a whole generation that fought openly against puritanism in most Western countries with the so-called “Sexual Revolution” from the 50’s to our present day.

Henry Miller wrote her this love letter, incredibly beautiful and passionate. If you are going to write a love letter in Valentine’s day, take note!!

August 14, 1932 
Anaïs:
Don’t expect me to be sane anymore. Don’t let’s be sensible. It was a marriage at Louveciennes—you can’t dispute it. I came away with pieces of you sticking to me; I am walking about, swimming, in an ocean of blood, your Andalusian blood, distilled and poisonous […] I saw you as the mistress of your home, a Moor with a heavy face, a negress with a white body, eyes all over your skin, woman, woman, woman. I can’t see how I can go on living away from you—these intermissions are death. How did it seem to you when Hugo came back? Was I still there? I can’t picture you moving about with him as you did with me. Legs closed. Frailty. Sweet, treacherous acquiescence. Bird docility. You became a woman with me. I was almost terrified by it. You are not just thirty years old—you are a thousand years old.
Here I am back and still smouldering with passion, like wine smoking. Not a passion any longer for flesh, but a complete hunger for you, a devouring hunger. I read the paper about suicides and murders and I understand it all thoroughly. I feel murderous, suicidal. I feel somehow that it is a disgrace to do nothing, to just bide one’s time, to take it philosophically, to be sensible. Where has gone the time when men fought, killed, died for a glove, a glance, etc? (A victrola is playing that terrible aria from Madama Butterfly—”Some day he’ll come!”)
I still hear you singing in the kitchen—a sort of inharmonic, monotonous Cuban wail. I know you’re happy in the kitchen and the meal you’re cooking is the best meal we ever ate together. I know you would scald yourself and not complain. I feel the greatest peace and joy sitting in the dining room listening to you rustling about, your dress like the goddess Indra studded with a thousand eyes.
Anaïs, I only thought I loved you before; it was nothing like this certainty that’s in me now. Was all this so wonderful only because it was brief and stolen? Were we acting for each other, to each other? Was I less I, or more I, and you less or more you? Is it madness to believe that this could go on? When and where would the drab moments begin? I study you so much to discover the possible flaws, the weak points, the danger zones. I don’t find them—not any. That means I am in love, blind, blind. To be blind forever! (Now they’re singing “Heaven and Ocean” from La Gioconda.) ….
[…] While it thunders and lightnings I lie on the bed and go through wild dreams. We’re in Seville and then in Fez and then in Capri and then in Havana. We’re journeying constantly, but there is always a machine and books, and your body is always close to me and the look in your eyes never changes. People are saying we will be miserable, we will regret, but we are happy, we are laughing always, we are singing. We are talking Spanish and French and Arabic and Turkish. We are admitted everywhere and they strew our path with flowers.
I say this is a wild dream—but it is this dream I want to realize. Life and literature combined, love the dynamo, you with your chameleon’s soul giving me a thousand loves, being anchored always in no matter what storm, home wherever we are. In the mornings, continuing where we left off. Resurrection after resurrection. You asserting yourself, getting the rich varied life you desire; and the more you assert yourself the more you want me, need me. Your voice getting hoarser, deeper, your eyes blacker, your blood thicker, your body fuller. A voluptuous servility and tyrannical necessity. More cruel now than before—consciously, wilfully cruel. The insatiable delight of experience.
HVM

 

Comments (8)

  1. Tina 9 months ago

    It is so great that this love letter has survived the test of time! So lovely!

  2. Kat 9 months ago

    I’ve been in love with Anaïs books for some now time now, but it has been a while since i’ve read them (definitely need to do that again!). This love story between these two writers is an intriguing one. How deep and passionate love can be. Thanks for sharing the letter.

  3. Anna 9 months ago

    What a beautiful love letter!!

  4. Antje 9 months ago

    This is so emotional and full of passion. Amazing!

  5. Star of the East 9 months ago

    He was quite the womanizer but that is some letter, I guess he got the females with words :)

  6. petitplat 9 months ago

    Weeeelll…. I think that’s just a tat too passionate for myself.
    Must be odd to have an affair like this over decades. But it then it might have worked because it was just an affair and they weren’t married.

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